Holding On
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twentyeytakoTitle: Holding on
Author: twentyeytako
Pairing(s):RyoDa
Rating:Safe
Genre:Angst
Beta by: me. *yep.*
Disclaimer: I still think I’m one of Johnny's lost nieces or granddaughters and i will inherit the company when he retires. until that happens, I don’t own any of them.
Summary: Ueda want to let go but someone reminded him why he's holding on in the first place
Author Note: again, it's short. Exam week is here and i wrote this to get in the mood. i felt i need to write something for me to have the inspiration to study. COMMENT PEOPLE!i wanna read them after my exams week. it'll surely make up for all my hard work. :}
Countless nights of fights, faces bruised and egos crushed. It comes to the point where he wants to give up. He doesn't want to hurt Ryo anymore and he knows the other doesn’t want to hurt him too.
Their fights would always start with petty things but because of their hot tempered personalities, they would blow up on each other. Ryo's poison tongue and
Tatsuya's boxing skills doesn't help in solving their problem. Once Ryo starts to say harsh words, it's is in Ueda' s instincts to hit him. Although not as skilled as Ueda, Ryo would fight back. They would end up bruised and panting. Ryo would walk out of the apartment to look for someone to talk to and treat his wounds while Tatsuya would be left behind.
A few moments after Ryo leaves, Tatsuya's tears would start pouring from his eyes. His body aches and his wounds stings but the pain he's feeling physically is nothing compared to the pain he's feeling in his heart. It is always after the fight that he wishes he never hit Ryo. It is at this moment that he wants to hug Ryo and tell him how sorry he is and treat all his wounds.
As he looks around their trashed apartment, he remembers all the happy times they spend there. He remembers all their sweet memories which caused his to cry more. As he thinks about it and thinks about the fights they have, he can't help but feel sad. Though he and Ryo share sweet and happy memories, he doesn't know if he can still take the fights they will have. It is clear to him that Ryo is the only person he will love and would make him feel happy but he doesn't want to be hurt and to hurt Ryo again. He thinks it'll be better if they go their separate ways. He'll be satisfied to continue loving him from afar.
Tatsuya's cell phone rang.
"Hello?" Tatsuya answered trying his best not to sound like he was crying.
"Tat-chan? It's Kame." the caller said.
"Ah. Kame, What is it?" He asked
"Uhmmm.. Tat-chan, are you okay?" Kame asked sounding worried
"Uh... Y-yes. I'm okay, Kame."
"Jin and I saw Ryo walking down the streets and..."
Kame paused when he heard a sob from the other line.
"...his face looked bruised and...And he was crying."
Tatsuya didn't say a word but Kame can still hear his sobs.
"You fought again didn't you?" Kame asked
"No." Tatsuya disagreed trying to hold his tears.
"Don't lie Tat-chan. The only time Ryo gets bruised like that is when you two fight and the only reason he cries is because of you." Kame said.
Kame was right and Tatsuya knows it. Among his friends, only Kame understands his relationship with Ryo.I t is always Kame who's always there to comfort him and Kame who was always there to help him understand.
"I give up. I don't want to continue this anymore." Tatsuya said.
"Why?" Kame asked.
"Because I can't bear hurting him and I know he doesn't want to continue hurting me too."
Kame didn't say anything so Tatsuya continued.
"I think it would be better if we go our separate ways. I think it's for the best. I can live loving him from afar." Tatsuya said.
Kame sighed from the other line before saying something.
"Tat-chan, do you remember why you held on for so long?" Kame asked
Tatsuya was surprised at Kame's question.
"It is because you love him so much that you don't want to be apart from him. You said before that though the two of you hurt each other, the hugs and the kisses you share afterwards are sweeter and more memorable..."
Kame was waiting for Tatsuya to say something but the other kept quiet.
"Do you remember ther eason? It's because those hugs and kisses are a result of understanding and not giving up on each other. Your mind tells you that all this should end because of the physical pain you're feeling but listen to your heart. I know it completely disagrees. Physical pain would heal but it is hard to mend a broken heart. Your heart begs to be with Ryo and I know his heart longs to be with you too. Your heart beats for one another that when the other is gone, the other would not survive." Kame said.
As soon as Kame’s words sank into him, Tatsuya dropped his phone and ran outside. For the first time after they fought, he ran outside to look for Ryo. This
time, he would make sure he says sorry to his lover and assure him that he still believes they belong to each other and that he will hold on to him forever.
Author: twentyeytako
Pairing(s):RyoDa
Rating:Safe
Genre:Angst
Beta by: me. *yep.*
Disclaimer: I still think I’m one of Johnny's lost nieces or granddaughters and i will inherit the company when he retires. until that happens, I don’t own any of them.
Summary: Ueda want to let go but someone reminded him why he's holding on in the first place
Author Note: again, it's short. Exam week is here and i wrote this to get in the mood. i felt i need to write something for me to have the inspiration to study. COMMENT PEOPLE!i wanna read them after my exams week. it'll surely make up for all my hard work. :}
Countless nights of fights, faces bruised and egos crushed. It comes to the point where he wants to give up. He doesn't want to hurt Ryo anymore and he knows the other doesn’t want to hurt him too.
Their fights would always start with petty things but because of their hot tempered personalities, they would blow up on each other. Ryo's poison tongue and
Tatsuya's boxing skills doesn't help in solving their problem. Once Ryo starts to say harsh words, it's is in Ueda' s instincts to hit him. Although not as skilled as Ueda, Ryo would fight back. They would end up bruised and panting. Ryo would walk out of the apartment to look for someone to talk to and treat his wounds while Tatsuya would be left behind.
A few moments after Ryo leaves, Tatsuya's tears would start pouring from his eyes. His body aches and his wounds stings but the pain he's feeling physically is nothing compared to the pain he's feeling in his heart. It is always after the fight that he wishes he never hit Ryo. It is at this moment that he wants to hug Ryo and tell him how sorry he is and treat all his wounds.
As he looks around their trashed apartment, he remembers all the happy times they spend there. He remembers all their sweet memories which caused his to cry more. As he thinks about it and thinks about the fights they have, he can't help but feel sad. Though he and Ryo share sweet and happy memories, he doesn't know if he can still take the fights they will have. It is clear to him that Ryo is the only person he will love and would make him feel happy but he doesn't want to be hurt and to hurt Ryo again. He thinks it'll be better if they go their separate ways. He'll be satisfied to continue loving him from afar.
Tatsuya's cell phone rang.
"Hello?" Tatsuya answered trying his best not to sound like he was crying.
"Tat-chan? It's Kame." the caller said.
"Ah. Kame, What is it?" He asked
"Uhmmm.. Tat-chan, are you okay?" Kame asked sounding worried
"Uh... Y-yes. I'm okay, Kame."
"Jin and I saw Ryo walking down the streets and..."
Kame paused when he heard a sob from the other line.
"...his face looked bruised and...And he was crying."
Tatsuya didn't say a word but Kame can still hear his sobs.
"You fought again didn't you?" Kame asked
"No." Tatsuya disagreed trying to hold his tears.
"Don't lie Tat-chan. The only time Ryo gets bruised like that is when you two fight and the only reason he cries is because of you." Kame said.
Kame was right and Tatsuya knows it. Among his friends, only Kame understands his relationship with Ryo.I t is always Kame who's always there to comfort him and Kame who was always there to help him understand.
"I give up. I don't want to continue this anymore." Tatsuya said.
"Why?" Kame asked.
"Because I can't bear hurting him and I know he doesn't want to continue hurting me too."
Kame didn't say anything so Tatsuya continued.
"I think it would be better if we go our separate ways. I think it's for the best. I can live loving him from afar." Tatsuya said.
Kame sighed from the other line before saying something.
"Tat-chan, do you remember why you held on for so long?" Kame asked
Tatsuya was surprised at Kame's question.
"It is because you love him so much that you don't want to be apart from him. You said before that though the two of you hurt each other, the hugs and the kisses you share afterwards are sweeter and more memorable..."
Kame was waiting for Tatsuya to say something but the other kept quiet.
"Do you remember ther eason? It's because those hugs and kisses are a result of understanding and not giving up on each other. Your mind tells you that all this should end because of the physical pain you're feeling but listen to your heart. I know it completely disagrees. Physical pain would heal but it is hard to mend a broken heart. Your heart begs to be with Ryo and I know his heart longs to be with you too. Your heart beats for one another that when the other is gone, the other would not survive." Kame said.
As soon as Kame’s words sank into him, Tatsuya dropped his phone and ran outside. For the first time after they fought, he ran outside to look for Ryo. This
time, he would make sure he says sorry to his lover and assure him that he still believes they belong to each other and that he will hold on to him forever.
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Date: 2009-08-08 10:55 pm (UTC)&& WHAT UP WITH TEH ANGST?! I can't read right now since I'm doing a project and exams week's coming up. =_=
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Date: 2009-08-09 02:38 am (UTC)ah... it just happend to be angst. i dunno why. :)
exams week ko na rin. good luck to us!